finally ...

Hannah had 7am wake-up ...
My happy/fun baby is back again (still teething but manageable) ...
I have a little bit more energy ...
My ultrasound is only a day away ...
And the biggest - I went through an entire weekend without testing! That was hard. I have an itch this am to buy another test. Big fear? Going to my ultrasound tommorow to discover I'm no longer pregnant. Not that a pregnancy test would confirm I'd see a heartbeat. I just need to see 2 lines for reassurance.

Well Hannah was sick for a couple days last week. When we went to the docs on Friday (We meaning Hannah, I, and my hubby ... he took the day off to play with the new toy he got - PS3) the he said she was perfect and not to worry. That the worst was over. Phewf! It was a long week.

Right now as I type this Hannah is amusing herself (she used to do this so well) and having a blast! I'm sooo happy to have her back. I don't like the rug being pulled out from under me.

Saturday nigth I went to play poker at a friends place and the worst happened - I got the text message from my babysitter saying Hannah woke. Well this was no suprise considering she woke Friday night numerous times. I came home. When I walked through the door I expected Hannah and the babysitter to be playing in the living room ... Only they weren't! My babysitter was just shutting the door to Hannah's room and Hannah was back aleep! Holy cow! At the best of times I can't do that. I was just about to head back to poker when Hannah let out a cry and then silent until 5:30am. It was always something I was scared of but now I realize it isn't the end of the world and people are very understanding. Maybe I would have won? Who knows ... at least I didn't lose!

I soooo could have used a drink this weekend.

I belong to this chat group and have been a part of it for about 2 years now. It is a pregnancy/trying chat group. Someone brought up the topic VBAC's (Vaginal Birth After C-Section) this past weekend and someone really expressed their opinion. They said things like C-sections do not let you bond as easily, that you miss out on a needed experience, that your maternal instinct doesn't kick in as fast, that you cost everyone more money ... and it went on. I was so fuming mad! People have the right to their opinions just don't try and pressure your beliefs on someone else. Luckily in this lifetime we get to make our own choices. I'm very thankful for that. When I gave birth it was magical! Unbelieveable! Extraordinary! C-section and all! (here are the videos of the first couple of minutes of Hannah's life)

Well off to put down #1 for a nap so I can feed #2 :)

Have a great week!
Sharon