for the love of gravy on pizza

I felt miserable ALL DAY LONG!

Here is the big question - why did I feel so miserable?
A. Since the 6-week mark is approaching, morning sickness is setting in.
B. The lack of sleep last night.
C. Onset of a cold/flu.

I'm hoping either B or C is the correct answer. But I guess I'll know more tommorow.

I feel so guilty for not paying as much attention to Hannah today as I normally do. I hate having to ask my hubby to pick up my slack. I don't know what I would have done today without him there. He is the most incredible hubby in the entire world!!!!! I am sooo lucky. But you know what he does better than being a fantastic hubby? He is an extraordinary Daddy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I love you Big Ron! With all my heart, body, and soul.

On a side note, I did talk to Shawna & Nick and they are having a kick-ass time in sunny Florida! And their daughter Hannah is also having a blast and adjusting terrifically.

Geeze Hannah was rough today (my Hannah). Aside from the teething, she more adventurous and that comes at a price. A lot of head banging. The more she tries to explore, the more she bangs/scratches/falls. I know it is like a right of passage that they go through, but it's hard to watch. And I also know we'll survive it - just like everything else. This process sucks.
Now, some more symptoms - occasional dizziness, nose bleeds (had this with my last pregnancy), and maybe a tad emotional ... possibly - but nothing I'll admit to.

Geeze, I hope this isn't morning sickness. I'm VERY HAPPY to br pregnant, and if it is morning sickness so be it, but it's hard taking care of a 9.5 month old with the sensation of almost puking.

Also, a little shout out to AmandaJ - I'm really sorry this cycle wasn't it. But I know you have more than enough love for another beautiful child and you will be pregnant soon enough!

To all my other chiquitas that are trying (M.Da., M.De., A.S., A.B.) have faitth! It will happen before you know it! And it will be absolutely incredible!

More nervousness, I only took 1 home pregnancy test yesterday, today, and I'll take one more tommorow. The thought of going to my first OB's appt. tommorow to find out I'm not pregnant would be mortifying. I wish these appt.'s didn't stress me out. I always hang on the doc's word. And my OB is pretty spectacular to begin with. So laid back. But I'm so stressed that I think it might stress him out.

Here is a list of questions I have for the doc:
1. Can I have an early ultrasound? (he'll probably say yes ... cause he'll see I'm stressed)
2. Do I need beta's done? I hope the answer is no. Why do I need more worrying?
3. Will he check for the heartbeat? I'm not sure at 6 weeks you can use a doppler yet.
4. Will everything be ok/work out?

Well, I'm off to worry some more. And HOPEFULLY feel better tommorow.

G'night,
Sharon